It’s been 806 days since I felt that I was important enough to write on my own blog.
In November of 2010 I was SO excited to share our story of paying off our debts, how we were working as a team, how Financial Peace University changed our lives and yet only six months later I stopped.
Work told me that I wasn’t important enough. Colleagues ignored me. I was getting sent to travel to Mexico for new programs for 18-24 months even after successful local (2 hours away) launches and even after giving up family time, after forgetting who my husband was, and after up-rooting my life.
Since then I’ve moved jobs 3 times. I have the best job I’ve had in awhile and yet I still feel unfulfilled in my career. I want to HELP people. I want to CONNECT with people. I want to do things FOR PEOPLE.
I know that I won’t be the best Manufacturing/Process/Industrial Engineer there is. I feel it requires me to uproot my whole life for nondescript amounts of time and in the long run I don’t feel like it is a fit even though I have two degrees in it. I can’t be the best but I can make it work. I can work to be the best team mate, colleague, and person I can be today.
In the last year I have been run over, seriously harassed at work, pushed around, and I been disrespected. Many of my colleagues of the last few years have enjoyed skirting responsibility and ignoring my requests.
Their puffed out egos give me the impression that they are putting on an act at work. It is hard for me to be anything but authentic.
My struggles over the last few years has either resulted in random blow ups (to colleagues, family, friends, random nice people) OR in a Laura who is quiet, timid and a Laura who is afraid to START.
Today begins a new day. Today I throw off the baggage and let the #haters stay at work. I let the excitement follow me home and today I was able to accomplish two words with even the tough situations… I was able to BE NICE even when I didn’t want to.
I also Started.
It may be 806 days and it will not be 806 more.
Today I started, I made an effort, I found a new perspective, and I found two words to inspire…
Where do you want to be today?
What small things can make your tomorrow THAT MUCH BETTER?
I have your back, your hand and I have a shoulder for you too…We got this!